I’m a dreamer and a planner, and often an idealizer. I can get so wrapped up in the future that the present fades away. Especially for me, being 19, there’s so much to look forward to. Getting married, finding a career I love, having kids, decorating a house. . .
And of course, dream-futures don’t have bills or arguments or sink-fuls of dirty dishes at 10 pm. They don’t have the heavier heartaches of life, either. They’re all sunshine and butterflies.
So then, I come back to reality and get frustrated easily. My daydreaming can make the present seem dull and broken. Do you ever notice that? Forward thinking isn’t always the best thing for gratitude. We are called to a joyful hope, but it shouldn't breed discontentment.
This discontentment is easy to come by, because we do live in a broken world. I know that phrase sounds quite Christian-ese, but it’s true. Things aren’t as they should be. Relationships and mindsets are fractured, shifted off-balance from what they were created to be. Twisted. I can feel it in myself and see it in my family and friends. Some things are just wrong.
And I can’t fix them.
So, I talk to God. I tell him I’d finally be content if he would just change this situation, heal that relationship, or get me to the next stage of life. Move things along, already!
Beth Moore explains this tendency well: “’If only . . ., then I could be happy’ are words that often invade our thoughts. Attaining all of our “if onlys” simply gives birth to a new set. Just as we get what we thought we had to have, all of the rules seem to change.”
The good news is, God knows. He’s not deceived by this the way I am. So, when I come complaining to him, He calls my heart beyond my circumstances: both present and future. He protects me from finding my comfort in this world, and beckons me to gaze upon his face alone. It wouldn't be right if this physical life was filling me to the brim with joy, contentment, and purpose. God wants me to find all that I need in him: that way, it’s fireproof. Untouchable. Unshakable by the enemy and this life.
A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows,
is God in his holy dwelling.
God sets the lonely in families,
he leads out the prisoners with singing;
but the rebellious live in a sun-scorched land.
You know what I see in these verses? God alone can fill every single void in our lives. Everything that’s fractured, shifted, and not quite right? He doesn’t guarantee that those things will change, but he does promise that he will be to us what even an easy life couldn’t be. He will fill every lacking area in our lives with himself. We can find, at last, peace, contentment, and joy when we stop letting those voids determine things, and turn to the eternal One.
Hello! I'm Anna, a college student living in the Midwest. I'm a strong believer in uncontrollable laughter, powerful words, and a morning cup of coffee. I pray these posts will encourage you to live a full life with and for God: unhindered. Follow me on social media for post updates!