Hello family and friends! I’m dropping in during this strange time to give a scatterbrained, although hopefully God-honoring life update. It’s hard to know what to say during this pandemic because everyone is going through difficult times, yet each situation is so different. We’re all struggling with this, and I hope it pushes us closer to more dependence and trust in God.
This quote from Spurgeon is so applicable as I process the last few months: “We are too prone to engrave our trials in marble and write our blessings in sand.” The bad news, anxieties, and setbacks in life can feel so ultimate, and if we’re not careful, we’ll let them snuff out the joy of our many blessings. I want to engrave my blessings in marble, where I can celebrate them and remember God’s faithfulness reflected in them. With that said, I’d love to share what’s been happening in my life lately, as well as the hope I’ve been pointed back to repeatedly.
I’ll start this post with a blessing: I was accepted into MSUM’s graduate program for Speech Language Pathology! This was my top choice school because the professors, resources, and clinic are top-quality. I’m thrilled to be starting in the program this Fall. It’s also a blessing to know that Brian and I won’t have to move, because of this next update:
Brian’s New Job
Brian recently began working part time as a Youth Pastor Intern at the church I grew up in. This has been so exciting and sweet! It’s great to see him do what he loves to do and went to college for. This is a desire we’d prayed about for 6 months before receiving the opportunity. God is good!
Life during the Coronavirus
More recently though, life has been strange (relatable, right?). The whole world has changed, and I find myself bouncing between many emotions and anxieties as I process it all.
In early-mid March I caught a cold that persisted and worsened over two weeks. I was freaked out and constantly analyzing my symptoms, but finally figured out it was a sinus infection. Whew!
After that went away, Brian started feeling not-so-great. His symptoms included a fever, which turned into a cough over time. After talking to nurses on the phone a few times, we decided he should be tested for COVID. The doctors said the results could take up to 7 days, so we stayed away from each other and prayed a lot.
Some things really drive you to prayer, and this was one for me. I didn’t fully feel the seriousness of this virus until it came so close to home. Brian’s test came back negative just two days later, which we’re still praising God for! The period of worry, waiting, and separateness felt so long, even though it wasn’t.
This opened my eyes to the reality of people’s anxiety and pain over this virus. Every single person who’s been affected matters. I want to continue praying just as seriously against this pandemic as I was when we thought Brian had it.
What about our wedding?
That’s a great question. This is the biggest thing in my life that’s been affected by the virus. Having the date set on May 30 made it feel like a non-question back in early March. But as we see the problem persist, we’ve had some hard conversations.
I’ve slowly come to accept that my wedding day may look vastly different from the day I’ve been planning and dreaming about for over a year. It may just be us, our Pastor, and our immediate families. Many of our pre-wedding events have been cancelled, and the honeymoon is also in question. My emotions have varied a ton, from “I have a surprising amount of peace right now!” to crying uncontrollably on the phone with my mom. There are just so many pieces of the day that may need to change drastically.
But, of course, there are blessings even here. I still get to marry Brian! While we’ve taken turns being sick, I’ve seen how beautiful it is to care for and support each other in hard times. This is just one thing I’m looking forward to in marriage! I’m also reminded that yes, a wedding is mostly about the marriage that follows. This is a belief I hold, but I feel like it’s being especially tested right now.
Well, friends, that’s my little update. I’m also becoming more and more excited about Easter as the day approaches. What better time to celebrate Jesus’ power and authority over all things? Let’s keep seeking our peace and security in Him!
Hello! I'm Anna, a college student living in the Midwest. I'm a strong believer in uncontrollable laughter, powerful words, and a morning cup of coffee. I pray these posts will encourage you to live a full life with and for God: unhindered. Follow me on social media for post updates!