Lately, I’ve been struggling with some things I thought were long gone from my life. And at the same time, God has been re-teaching me the most basic truths. It’s been a week of frustration but has also brought so many sweet reminders of God’s character and faithfulness.
Distance from God.
First, I’ve been re-learning that God will never, ever leave me. Nothing can take me from his hand. I’ve always known that’s true, but the enemy can do crazy things with your mind. While sin and circumstances can affect how close I feel to God relationally, nothing can budge his love for me or my security in salvation. In case you’re needing this today too, here’s the Truth:
My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all; no one can snatch them out of my Father’s hand. -John 10:27-30
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. -Romans 8:38-39
It’s crazy to me that nothing can separate me from God. It’s also crazy that he invites me to know him in the first place! My lack of goodness will never outweigh my Father’s promises.
I’ve also been confronted with loads of inadequacy. If you had asked me a week ago how I was doing with self-confidence, I would have said I was doing great—I honestly thought that struggle was behind me.
My college classes are getting really hard this semester. They’re focusing more on components of actually doing speech therapy: writing reports, how to act with clients, writing goals, and how to diagnose disorders. I feel like I’m in over my head, and in my most negative moments, I believe that I cannot do it. I’ve been feeling inadequate in most every other area of my life, too: my job, meetings, time management, and leadership positions.
The good news is, God’s staying right beside me in this struggle as well. He is constantly directing my focus to Christ. To truth. He’s helping me notice when my thoughts are coming from the enemy instead of him. He’s reminding me that because of Jesus, he sees me as valuable, worthy, competent, and righteous. And in the end, it’s not just feel-good motivation, because he’s showing me that there really isn’t anything I can do to prove myself! I cannot be good enough, but at the same time, he always sees me as enough.
Such confidence we have through Christ before God. Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God. He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant—not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life. -2 Corinthians 3:4-6
And as if two big struggles were not enough for a week, life has thrown in another: I’ve been experiencing the deadliness of ‘small’ sins like gossip, complaining, and a bad attitude. These are three things I normally don’t think much of. They’re just part of a normal day, to be honest. But God has been confronting these inclinations in my heart. He’s showing me that his way is always the better way, no matter how small the issue is.
So there you have it, folks. A grand list of my latest spiritual problems! I hope you’ll find encouragement and companionship in a few of the things I’ve said. But above all, I’m celebrating the fact that God shows himself to us even in our struggles and sins. He stays by our side constantly, lovingly teaching and shaping us throughout life. I sincerely hope you can sense him working through your struggles, too. What a faithful, merciful God we serve.
Hello! I'm Anna, a college student living in the Midwest. I'm a strong believer in uncontrollable laughter, powerful words, and a morning cup of coffee. I pray these posts will encourage you to live a full life with and for God: unhindered. Follow me on social media for post updates!